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How bored I am, I can't even! It's 1:31am and I gotta study. I have a paper due tomorrow, I gotta finish the report. BUT.I.AM.BORED.

I'll probably skipping tonight's sleep. Cause I'm not studying but singing a song loudly.

SO. Hai!

I don't watch Modern Family, awakencordy does. She just shared this quote I lost myself in it, I just gotta save it here.

There are dreamers and there are realists in this world. You’d think the dreamers would find the dreamers and the realists would find the realists, but more often than not, the opposite is true.

You see, the dreamers need the realists to keep them from soaring too close to the sun, and the realists… Well, without the dreamers, they might not ever get off the ground.

I gotta write this one.

When I got back from school, as always I was checking around the apartment if everything was fine with the cats. There was little cat food in my bag, so I poured it to their usual place.

All the cats around here used to me so much, they even take my orders. They know their usual places and getting into a line they wait for the food at the exact place everytime. So it was unusual when one of the best-natured cats was acting so aggressive and attacking every cat within 2 meters. I was patting and holding her back, but seriously I was like "what the fuck is happening here...?!"

Her usual area is 3 blocks away, so when I decided that I can't let her here like this, cause she was even attacking the smaller cats and even a hurt one, I took her in my arms and walked to her area. She was just so good with me, actually was happy in my arms, but even when there were other cats around me, she was hissing.

Still puzzled, I left her in her area, assuming she'd calm down after she got her sleep at least or something lol, turned back and started walking back home. Then I realized she was still coming with me, I stopped and looked, asked "what?!".. And she meowed me for the fucking first time. I had never heard her voice before and I've known her for 3 years. So, still puzzled, I turned back again towards her place, and after one more time meowing to me, starting walking. I got the cue, and walked along with her without having any clue what the hell was happening.

She took me to a corner place under the balconies, a different little place, behind a wire mesh, a weird place for sure, but I figured it's her place. I was there before, but never actually saw any cats there, only some kittens without their mother. Well yes, apparently the mother was always her. Now though, checking still I'm there, she got into the place, walking around and laid down somewhere protective. She was out of my reach, but I was able to see her clearly.

So I assumed I was done, she just showed me her place (why even?!), turned back again, going back home. When I was a block away, she was again with me. I'm not sure if it sounds weird to you, if you're around with cats or not, BUT BE SURE IT'S FUCKING WEIRD. I stopped, looked at her, asked "what" again, she meowed, and we took the same road again. She settled to the same place, and meowed to me.

I saw her stomach clenching, having a pang. Then I got it. STUPID AS FUCK. She was pregnant yeah, but it wasn't that big, so I was assuming she still had at least 2 weeks. DUDE. She was having her babies, and asking me to stay with her.

I watched her settle again, relaxing, looking at me. So yeah, I was thinking what the hell was happening, what the hell did she want from me, I started waiting. Cause;

1. She's not that MY cat, and she had plenty babies before that I actually was looking for a chance she wasn't pregnant so I could took her to my cousin for neutralizing but she was always pregnant or feeding her kittens SOMEWHERE I had no idea. So it was weird that she was even showing her safe place to me.
2. Mother cats never look for someone around, they actually get nervous with people and doesn't want anyone else while they're having their babies.

So. I waited there for 15 minutes in serious cold weather. Whenever I tried to move, she was up, looking at me. When I stop and settle watching again, she would turn and have her relaxed position. After 15 minutes though, since there was nothing I could do and it's going to take forever to give birth (probably all night), I moved WAY too silent and got away from there.

Now it's been an hour I'm home, but my mind is there. Because of their amazing instincts, this unusual behavior can mean her birth will go wrong and she'll need my help. I don't even know. I'm just out of thoughts, cause it's been 4-5 years I've been dealing with stray cats, and I've never lived something quite like this.

And I've been watching way too much Animal Planet lately, I will just start calling myself The Cat Whisperer. A-ha. Exactly.

Saw it on Tumblr, and if anyone's interested, I'd like to do this meme.

Purple: 10 facts about my room.
Blue: 9 facts about my family.
Green: 8 facts about my body.
Yellow: 7 facts about my childhood.
Orange: 6 facts about my home town.
Red: 5 facts about my first bestfriend(s).
Pink: 4 facts about my parents.
White: 3 facts about my personality.
Grey: 2 facts about my favourite things.
Black: 1 fact about the person you like.

Pick a color. Shoot!

From freaksoldier:

Orange: 6 facts about my home town. (Istanbul)

♥ Istanbul is the most crowded city of Turkey with the population of more than 22 million out of 74 million.
♥ Most people from Istanbul have love/hate relationship with the city. Many people runs away from the city's crowd/noise/dirtiness, but eventually everyone gets back.
♥ With the philosophy of "Live fast, die early." you can be really happy in Istanbul.
♥ Bosphorus. You never are too away from sea, so when you're any town without sea, it feels weird and claustrophobic. At least for me.
♥ Bosphorus also divides Asia and Europe, so only city in the world has lands on two continents, as far as I know.
♥ Since Ottoman sets out the city after Byzantines, and then modern days with Republic of Turkey, Istanbul has endless sources from history side. You can never get bored of the city.

White: 3 facts about my personality.

♥ I tend to have self distrust with my stand point generally (especially with people), but if I know I'm good at something specifically I may even have over trust and be a little smartass over it.... sometimes.
♥ I look for peace in everything. Trying to find the place in life where I can be happy in peace.
♥ I still haven't decided on if I'm antisocial or just plain lazy. (Probably lazy though. Just denying.)

Grey: 2 facts about my favourite things.

♥ Animals. I'm living closer to cats, but I am a serious animal lover. Any kind. I don't separate.
♥ Technology. Been living close with my technological devices for about 10 years. It frustrates people around me, generally. (NO1CURRS!)


From beyondthepen:

Red: 5 facts about my first bestfriend(s).

♥ My first bestfriend was on 3rd grade. When she moved out, we've sent letters to each other for a couple of years, but of course we lost contact after a while.
♥ I met with my second bestfriend at the first day of middle school and we've lived for 4 years cohesively. Then she turned out to be a total bitch and betrayed me.
♥ I still have a connection with my high school bestfriend. But she left in 10th grade for her education in New York, so we've changed separately. But I love it we still have "it" when we talk we need each other.
♥ My last hope on bff page was the girl I kicked out of my life a couple of months ago.
♥ I'm a giver. So I give everything I can, until I give up from waiting to receive it back in my bilateral relationships. But at least finally, I gave up hoping I'll have a real bestfriend that can give her heart/mind/soul for me.

Blue: 9 facts about my family.

♥ Our family was from 5 people up until 5 years ago; dad, mom, me, brother, and grandmother (dad's mom). Then mom said grandmother will visit other brothers/sisters too, since she has 5 children and now she lives with us for 3-4 months in every year.
♥ Now we're still 5, with our cat, Bücür. She came when she was 2-month old, and now she's 6 year-old. Time passes.
♥ Dad had dogs and many cats in my grandma's house, bringing the hurt or little stray ones. Grandma always says he was a pain in the ass from animals' side.
♥ Dad is a serious reader. He can read every kind of book, just for reading, in a night or two.
♥ Mom was an accountant manager for more than 20 years. She's been always good with numbers.
♥ My biggest pet peeve is the relationship I have with my dad. Nowadays he's seriously trying though. I'm proud.
♥ My brother will be attending university entrance exams next year in these times, and he's preparing for art school. Drawing or sculpture it will be. As far as it seems though.
♥ I have a close relationship with my brother. He's growing and it's his tough teenage years but still most of the time we get along pretty well. I've realized just lately that I've been telling everything to him first. He's my strength.
♥ My parents raised me a little protective, and reasoned me to prefer staying at home instead of going out and that became my habit after a while. So this year they started pushing me out of the house for the first time. LOL ask me about confusing signals. *rolls her eyes*


From geckoholic:

Yellow: 7 facts about my childhood.

♥ Until I was 10, we had my aunt's in the same building. Aunt was the eldest in family after my grandma, so everyone would come to us in holidays. So I've raised in a very crowded family, I can say. (I had 17 cousins, the last time I counted.) Probably this is also the reason why I just want nuclear family with one kid.
♥ I've grown away from dad until I was 15. He was a long-way driver between Europe-Turkey. So he's been at home once in every 15-20 days.
♥ I was always close to mom. She had many rules when I was little, but in my last year in high school, I felt things were changing. And after I won university, like everyone said it would be, we finally settled. Even though we have the ability to eat each other alive, just in 5 minutes.
♥ I've raised by so many women, mom, grandma, aunt, other aunt, big sister-cousin,...... THAT WAS THE REASON I WAS SO CONFUSED. lol. Thank God it changed.
♥ I was always successful at school. But also I was the "bitch" of middle and high school. Good that I've grown enough to pass the second one.
♥ When I was 4-5 year-old, I had wanted to be a dancer. Then teacher. Then volleyball player. Then architect. Then engineer. Then vet...... Aaaah, and finally, picked the worst: Business. *sigh* I ruined my life, period.
♥ All things aside, I had a happy childhood. Loving family and all.... Just that they didn't know any better, resulted me having the wrong turns in life. But I can't blame anyone. They just wanted me to have the best life possible. Not the happiest.